Come talk to me... I wrote Demon in the Sewers because of a possession and heavy metal/ lack of gut flora inflicted Bipolar Dx and serious insomnia issue with Mania.
It talked to me only twice and i told it the words I had heard were not my own- Get out of my head! i heard it walk from my mind and slam the door. Over time i realized that doctors would not solve the issue so I looked for my own resolutions-- I have them posted in the Robin Williams tribute fic call i created. I now sleep like a baby and am free of that thing.
Please come talk to me.
I get that way a lot, where it's more "fun" to write the horrible dark things lurking in my skull.
There isn't a lot of fluff, but it's nice when it does show up.
Rant 2 started out fun and then as I wrote it, and rewrote it, it simply built upon itself in that rolling dark journey.
I've learned to ignore the voices, but the visual things still sneak up, it's always bugs or bug like.
The medication works well, I'm one a few levels of getting the scripts right, and at least this variation of drugs doesn't steal my soul of writing and creativity. But I do find problems focusing sometimes; as my writing can attest. Scattered, all over the place.
I read your Robin Williams tribute, it spoke to me on many levels.
You know we all fell that at different points in our lives as we go through our manias.
I'm not suicidal anymore, which is great.
I'm also not violent anymore, which is also high on the perks list.
Though I watch my daughter and I see a lot of my bad habits starting to appear in her. And I want to hope that it's just her growing bigger and going through the chemical changes of life and not the fucked up world that is my psychosis. God help genetics. See there I go again darkening. I really need to start paying attention to what my mood really is when I start into my macabre phases, to see if it's highs or lows. Or right now, just cranky as hell.
Thanks' for posting with me Prop, it's nice to know folks read some of the ranting, and are caring enjoy to want to get to know us better.